i went for a walk around the neighborhood today. i made sure to sway my hips good and wide so he could settle his head down deep. the effects of that are visible now in the way i walk.
when a few weeks ago i wished i could be pregnant indefinitely, now i am starting to entertain other thoughts. i do want to meet him. i'm just terrified. it's like butterflies in my stomach- the ones i'd get if i were about to swim in the olympics and i was standing behind the blocks.
i now have a stethescope(thank you margaret) so i can listen to his heartbeat at night. it sounds like a roofer- a block away- hammering rythmically to secure shingles to a roof.
i'm struggling to get things done ahead of time. schoolwork that is available for me to do, i get it done asap. housework- not so much. the kids schooling is starting to slow down. i'm not as focused at getting through every subject with them as i was a couple of weeks ago. i just want us to slow down and enjoy "normal" for a little bit. we play outside, sit in the sun, go for walks- just be together.
they need the break. and so do i.