on the way home from mass this morning i had to stop and get a few things for the house. i am still receiving meals from gracious people- so thankfully i didn't have to buy LOTS of groceries, just some stuff for the house. the publix by our house knows us. they know my kids. we know quite a few of their employees by name. but they don't know me-know me. so one day they see me shopping pregnant, and the next they'll see me not pregnant. they've seen me like this twice before and have gotten used to me wearing my newborns in slings- so i can almost hear them say "oh! you had your baby! ..... where is he?"
so to avoid this scenario i went shopping at the new kroger next door. i felt a pang of guilt. like i was being unfaithful. but i rationalized that i was just doing this for the time being- i can't run away from this forever. i told chris of my kroger shopping plan on saturday and he thought it a good idea. he told me he was going to look for a new job because he didn't want to have to go back and explain to a bunch of people. then he calmed me down by saying he wasn't serious about another job- he likes his current job.
he said "you don't have to face everything all at once. just take your time."