i'm hesitating in making this decision. and i think it has something to do with me trying to freeze time. as if pregnancies only progress toward their end when a care provider has been picked.
another part of me not choosing a care provider is i feel like i'll hurt people's feelings if i don't choose the care provider they think i should have.
the bottom line is- i need a care provider that i can trust. trust is my biggest issue. i don't necessarily need a care provider who is warm and fuzzy. i don't need a care provider that is knife happy or scared of delivering vaginally after a c-section. i don't want a care provider that i have to explain myself or my decisions to.
ideally i'd love to homebirth. but since chris is not on board with that option i need to find a care provider that delivers at either northside atlanta or emory midtown.
why is this so hard?
Don't worry about people's feelings. Choose the careprovider that is best for you & Jedi.
ReplyDeleteI was wondering if you were going to home birth. Its so hard bc it is your child, its so hard bc you have 6 other experiences to tell you how you want Jedidiah to come into this world, its so hard bc its Jedidiah! Can any of the midwives direct you to someone compassionate and understanding?
ReplyDeletePray on it Elizabeth God will bring you to the correct one!
Laura