good news!!!

chris stopped at the computer place on the way home and the guys recovered ALL our files!
Hallelujah!!!

feel good post

thank you to all who have sent me pictures of jedidiah!
i wanted you all to know that besides the memory wiping virus i have been feeling really good these past few months. 
since we have bought our place closer to town i have been filled with so much love and gratitude.  in hindsight i know i was depressed.  i wouldn't say i felt overwhelming and crippling sadness.  i felt that only occasionally and not too much during the past year.  i mostly felt nothing.  which makes me believe that this resurgence of feelings is me coming out of the funk. 
and while i still fear the death of a loved one, it is not as strong as it once was. 
God has walked me through the valley of death.  and now, on the other side, i am drinking deep at the table of life, relishing in my family, my friends, and my faith.

our PC caught a virus

and chris couldn't save anything from the memory. 
all the pictures.  all the video. 
i took the news surprisingly well.  but i told him "that is all we have of jedidiah."
he fiddled with it for another hour and then decided to turn it over to a specialist. 
but the latest news from the specialist isn't great.  they said they could access and move all of our music.  but they said they only found a few picture files. 
i just hope and pray that his file is among the ones they found.